....itz been 3 LONG!!!!! daez seens i have been having thiz living reality nightmare....how i have pull thru tiz 3 daez was a miracle...what can i say i know deep down that every single step i take to werk was like..."a living corpes"...yesterdae i was werking in the afternoon and todae murin....i was freaking tired...manage to clear all my necessary stuff as soon as i reach home....and definitely what can be an even more sweetest nite then to hear hubby husky and low base voice....his voice alwaez make me go ulalala....hahahax..that is something that i have neva tell him b4..but thatz the fact...hush2!...after putting down the phone i knock off...the next thing i noe its morning....gosh!...i cant wake up...i push myself to the toilet...reach werking place..had bfast and off to serious werk...morning shift was a bit more busy as compared to afternoon...2dae the patient was a bit more 'friendly' i have no idea y...but who cares so long as there r happy..they make me happy too....weeee!!!!....something tremendous happen ysterdae which i feel that i shuld blog my feelings about..its about tiz 'person'..i cant believe it...she's like that..i alwaez fine her nice and pleasent untill ysterdae..its truelly an eye opener 4 me, jaan alwaez tell me not to trust any1 but me being tasneem and i guess jaan was all a long rite...she backstab me..my other friends use to tell me about her attitude...but i still wuld insist that she's good...untill of course it slap me back at my cheeck..i reali2 have no idea y i ask jaan to let go of me juz now in fact i love him so much so that i cant imagine life without him and if i ever get married itz only gonna be musa and nobody else and i am very sure about it!... jaan ask me who influence me in making such foolish decision at that point of time i was totally blank i was not able to answer her...untill when i spend sometime on my own before going back home...i figured out that it was all along her move to make me break up with my love...y cant she just dhua for our happiness instead she choose to do such cheap act to sum1 that have alwaez been there for her when she needed sum1 badly?..seriously speaking i deserve it...i mean what's her problem? she wuld alwaez tell me about being single and that she got all the freedom to do whatever she wants..and whenever musa msg me she will be telling me stuff like all guys are the same la, "get a life tasneem" and she'll tell me tat its sometime better to be distance from the 1 u love..try not to msg him so much la later he'll get bored of u..blablabla etc..if she have decided to be single all her life...thats her decision..y influence me in it? ...i have made my decision to be attach to musa for the rest of my life..i am now guin to look forward to a bright future with him .there will not be any1 better then musa 4 me..i am not saying it becoz i am so madly in love with him...itz factual..alhamdulilah i see musa as a good husband and a good father...what else can i ask for he's honest. simple, humble, loyal, cool tempered, a guy without ego, a willing person and the most importantly he is super duper sincere in apologising and giving me presents and i am so sure that nobody is gonna be sincere about loving me ever...i m 1 lucky gerl....ILY! sometimes the way musa react to our certain problems can be cute especially when he start saying..."i am sori u noe sayang! it's all my fault!, kol me stupid! don't leave me k"...i feel like laughing and biting him and saying to him that i'll never leave u! allah!....
back to the storey...i am tremendously mad at her...my heart say that i am not gonna talk to her 4eva..but to think about the punishment allah swt have given to some1 that are not in good terms is tauba2...i m just gonna remain cool about it...i am gonna forgive and forget about what she have done to me....
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