Hehehehex...well thatz me mrs musa..ehem2...blush*...looking a little indian with the nose stud?....hmmm...LOL!...i had loads of fun at fa'atimah didi's wedding over at bencoolen mosque...its definitely a dae to remember!..i m pity sure that fa'atimah didi is indeed very excited...wow! i feel so happy for her alhamdulilah finally she is married to some1 that she reali love...in a few minz time its gonna be aba's 51st bdae....so i am solemly gonna wish aba a very happy bdae...may allah alwaez shower his blessing upon u forever and aba seriously u r the best father in the whole wide world...tasneem is so lucky to have you as her father....I LOVE YOU!...mmmuuuaaaahhhh!

oLd iS gOlD....

Shall i say todae was a bomb! i didnt feel this much of happiness before for a very long time....the feeling was as if i was in my secondary school days...no worries and all fun kinda life..i still remember very vividly that i use to be sum1 that is super hyper! my life use to circulate on gym schedules, netball training, students councillor meetings and also my npcc training...i still rememember those daez where guys wuld go gaga over me despite the very fact that i was not at all bothered..i still dont understand y they wuld like me so much in fact i noe myself that i was kinda tanned in colour and frankly speaking i have no idea how to dress myself up...hahahaha...i still rememember on the 26 july 2005 it was my 15th bdae...i left malay lesson earlier on that faithful dae coz i need to get change into my jersey and be off to Singapore Sports School for a tournament...i got a...ummm...shall i say pleasent surprise from some1 that have alwaez love me sincerly in secondary school..joshuel bought me a teddy bear from his own pocket money which he save for the entire week...i was touched! when he gave me the teddy and confested that he love me at the bustop outside my school...i was stunned as i didnt wanna give him hope that i like him n stuff as i noe all a long i was being very friendly towards him becoz he was the oni guy frend that was very close to me then and was alwaez encouraging me to bring out the best in me in wateva i do..i said thank u, return the teddy back and rejected him...for the 1st time in my 15 years of life i made a guy cry for me...he was upset..some way or another the next dae he put the same teddy on my table and tiz time with a small note saying "the reason y i like u so much is bcoz ure alwaez smiling...can we still be frends?" i took the teddy and smile back at him...but then he never give up on me..that is something that i use to admire about joshuel..he is a catholic but he will go to the mosque every fridae with my malay guy frends just to impress me...n till todae he still doesnt noe that i was aware of his ways to attract my attention....the valentine dae song dedication which he made and sang especially 4 me infront of the entire school in the canteen where i was eating..choz, secret admirer love cards...u name it! hahaha...the whole entire school noes that josh likes me..teachers wuld disturb josh with me further more he sits beside me in class....hahaha...remembering such sweet event bring a wide smile on my face while passing by the same bustop that he confested...hahaha...so yeap mit up wit my netball school team mates juz now after werk while cummin back got stuck with them..ya i noe i m suppose to go badima house but mom and shaheen when out w/o me on top of that i feel that i wanted to have sumtyme on my own....they ask me out for a game....i was so excited!...it feels like ages seens i last played basketball..i went back home change n booh! off to the basketball court near my school....i took 804...while in the bus...lotsa things came in my mind...i was only thinking about how perfectly i have spend my teenage daez in that skool...frankly speaking i miss NORTHBROOKS SEC...i miss those uniform group, netball training, student councillor camps that we use to have in skool..if only i can reverse time i culd! n i wuld!...

A MiStAKe...

....itz been 3 LONG!!!!! daez seens i have been having thiz living reality nightmare....how i have pull thru tiz 3 daez was a miracle...what can i say i know deep down that every single step i take to werk was like..."a living corpes"...yesterdae i was werking in the afternoon and todae murin....i was freaking tired...manage to clear all my necessary stuff as soon as i reach home....and definitely what can be an even more sweetest nite then to hear hubby husky and low base voice....his voice alwaez make me go ulalala....hahahax..that is something that i have neva tell him b4..but thatz the fact...hush2!...after putting down the phone i knock off...the next thing i noe its morning....gosh!...i cant wake up...i push myself to the toilet...reach werking place..had bfast and off to serious werk...morning shift was a bit more busy as compared to afternoon...2dae the patient was a bit more 'friendly' i have no idea y...but who cares so long as there r happy..they make me happy too....weeee!!!!....something tremendous happen ysterdae which i feel that i shuld blog my feelings about..its about tiz 'person'..i cant believe it...she's like that..i alwaez fine her nice and pleasent untill ysterdae..its truelly an eye opener 4 me, jaan alwaez tell me not to trust any1 but me being tasneem and i guess jaan was all a long rite...she backstab me..my other friends use to tell me about her attitude...but i still wuld insist that she's good...untill of course it slap me back at my cheeck..i reali2 have no idea y i ask jaan to let go of me juz now in fact i love him so much so that i cant imagine life without him and if i ever get married itz only gonna be musa and nobody else and i am very sure about it!... jaan ask me who influence me in making such foolish decision at that point of time i was totally blank i was not able to answer her...untill when i spend sometime on my own before going back home...i figured out that it was all along her move to make me break up with my love...y cant she just dhua for our happiness instead she choose to do such cheap act to sum1 that have alwaez been there for her when she needed sum1 badly?..seriously speaking i deserve it...i mean what's her problem? she wuld alwaez tell me about being single and that she got all the freedom to do whatever she wants..and whenever musa msg me she will be telling me stuff like all guys are the same la, "get a life tasneem" and she'll tell me tat its sometime better to be distance from the 1 u love..try not to msg him so much la later he'll get bored of u..blablabla etc..if she have decided to be single all her life...thats her decision..y influence me in it? ...i have made my decision to be attach to musa for the rest of my life..i am now guin to look forward to a bright future with him .there will not be any1 better then musa 4 me..i am not saying it becoz i am so madly in love with him...itz factual..alhamdulilah i see musa as a good husband and a good father...what else can i ask for he's honest. simple, humble, loyal, cool tempered, a guy without ego, a willing person and the most importantly he is super duper sincere in apologising and giving me presents and i am so sure that nobody is gonna be sincere about loving me ever...i m 1 lucky gerl....ILY! sometimes the way musa react to our certain problems can be cute especially when he start saying..."i am sori u noe sayang! it's all my fault!, kol me stupid! don't leave me k"...i feel like laughing and biting him and saying to him that i'll never leave u! allah!....

back to the storey...i am tremendously mad at her...my heart say that i am not gonna talk to her 4eva..but to think about the punishment allah swt have given to some1 that are not in good terms is tauba2...i m just gonna remain cool about it...i am gonna forgive and forget about what she have done to me....

WhAt A nIgHtmARe....

Seriously...seriously..seriously...speaking.....my first dae at ward 8A was so freaking bored..the staff are not at all friendly and they all look as if they are not willing to teach us...the thought of me in the A class ward was a fantastic feeling...but the feeling of me werking in the A class ward was...a big time...YAKX!!!!!....OMG!!!...as it is most of the patients are well educated and i guess it comes with a package with thier big time demanding and ego attitude...it just got on my nerve to nurse such patients..i have no idea how m i gonna pull thru tiz last posting...despite the very fact that i have barely 13 more daez to 'survive' werking....what can be an even more scary nightmare then have to werk afternoon shift with brother Muru 2mlw...Gosh!...

Gerlfwend dae out....

To my dearest chocolate cookies blog!....i had awsome time with my gerlfrends todae except that my darling sholeha was unable to attend todaez outing..poor baby gerl she is reali sick...get well soon k my dearest!..i miss u sho sho muakx gerl!..i miss the times where you and i will be all crazy in skool especially in psychiatric class....hahahax..cannot tahan seriously we can reali be so notti what to do we are known by the skool of nusing to be the gerls that is hyper despite the fact that at times the class can be dead but u n i can neva kip our mouth shut...hahaha....with all the lame jokes that u n i can think of its totally out of the world ..to make the class laugh..and the best part is that we are alwaez on to challenge the guys in sports hahaha...especially netball...those abang abang in class still dont get it that we are proz in that sport and still they got the cheek to challenge us...hahaha...you rawk la sey...cant imagine going thru my ITE daez without you......u noe i noe...wakakaka....hope 2 c u very soon and gila2 again....it felt so good to have meet them after a very long break due to our busy werking schedule n stuff...We meet up at our usual hang out...where else can that be besides fullerton starbuckz....suprisingly the barista still remember me...hahahax...awww! thatz swit la sey...ordered my usual....after mamam n all we headed to marina to have dinner at Long John...after which we went shopping for our prom over @ suntec....like finally i have decided what to wear for prom and i am very confident that i am definitely gonna look so wow! ummm..m not gonna disclose to any1 for the time being...hush! wanna kip it a secret for now and give every1 a very big surprise on that dae......hehehex...definitely todae is a dae full of updates and surprises....just gotta sey that tasneem loves her gerlfwendz.....muakz!

So FoR nOw LeT tHe PiCz Do ThE tOkInG aItEz....WiNkX*

Yummy2! slurp! burp!

gfs n mie @ fullerton stabuckz....

meow..meow!

Juz the 2 of uz!
My most precious frend....

my sis...dila!


ThE eNd!!!!!

mRs Musa In Her LaLaLaNd....

FIUH!!! i am so freaking tired...the wedding at bedok CC just now was great fun...manage to catch up wit my patenal side cuzzinz n all....the best part is of course the bangra dance, hindustani band and also the delicious food...its been a long time since i last ate something oily from a wedding reception thout....while watching the bride and groom cutting their wedding cake...randomly jaan came in my mind...i was just wondering to myself...when will it be my big day..i cant wait for this major event to take place in my life...seriously...WOW!!! the feeling of marrying some1 that u love....the thought of taking care, understanding , respecting and showing that special sum1 one he is very special in ure life every single dae....is indeed a very wonderful feeling that no money can buy.....ILY Jaan!!

PSSST: THIS MAN IS WANTED!!!!

I MISS U JAAN!!!

I HOPE YOU HAD AWSOME TIME IN M'SIA....