Well what can i say..been busy..especially TTSH ED OMG! but then suprsingly alhamdulilah...i am lovin it..i love my job..hehex..so yeap today's my off day like after a solid 9 days of werking like siau! finally rest day la sey.....life is totally diffrent now for me...like so totally...i wish i can reverse the clock to my school days...everything is going at a very fast and intense pase and its like there is so little time left...haiz! there are so many things in my head...its all in a total mess...i am just SUPER DUPER STRESS!!!! allah help me...something happen just now...i dont wish to touch on it...but definitely i noe that i did something stupid...i walk all the way from the sembawang park to my house...half way thru my journey i stopped at makmur mosque..to pray maghrib...i just felt that i wanted to talk to allah so much...he knows me the best...only he can guide me in my thoughts...i miss allah..
i am at lost of words for a moment...i am thinking about jaan...it hurts me so terribly much its as if he took a gun and shoot me..when he say that i make him cry twice and that i am stressing him..? did i? if i am maybe i should just go away from his life so that he'll get a peace of mind without me..maybe he mean to say that he's sick and tired of me...am i a bad girl? did i hurt him that much? for him to tell such piercing words to me...i am dissapointed...was it my fault that i really wanted some time on my own..? was it my fault that i wonder about alone @ Sembawang park...am i not a big girl dont i know how to take care of myself...dont i deserve to have fun on my own just like how i used too...
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