At 18 going on 19 i realise that life is not a bed of roses after all...everything that happen here happens for a reason....sit back and think...my life is like a book that has already been written and stamp by allah even before i was even part of it...i am just an individual that have to be in that big picture to finish up the play...no doubt..i choose what i want..but still there are many other things that happen beyond our control...what i choose today effects what happen tomorrow...choices are simply endless...i have no 1 to blame....it was all mend to happen...think positive...and move on..its after all about the clock that goes...tik..tik..tik...isn'it...yes! i am not at my best state of mind now...there are seriously tooo many things that is going on ...the brown line is i just dont wish to touch on it plus i guess despite the fact that i am at my worst ...i am still happy...this special some1 of mind...he make me feel that i am not alone in this battle...he make me realize that he will always be with me just like my shadow...the most surprising thing that i can ever imagine is that he accept me for who i am entirely...after seeing tasneem at her worst...he is still here for me...just what is he made up of? i wonder...i swear that i had never came across any1 like him before...he make the world of disney and bollywood so alive in our relationship...i feel that i am in a land where there is only musa and myself...no1 can ever imagine that musa will ever do such sweet things for me...he do things so naturally...he knows what i need...how i feel...what i want...he knows that i am not perfect but still he's love for me is for internity....